Learning to balance

This afternoon I took the girls on a much needed walk. It's one of Bailey's favorite times since I let her off the leash to run free along the trail. She looks like Dumbo as her ears fly outward when she runs and you can actually see a smile on her face. Lola has selective hearing so she has to stay on her leash but she doesn't seem to mind as she tries to keep up with Bailey and take in all the smells.

On these walks I like to spend some time reflecting about life. My life now and what my life used to be like. I've wanted to blog several times over the last few weeks but I just can't seem to find the words...or the time. I've been struggling lately. Mainly an internal struggle with my new life, going to school, and not having the freedom and time that I used to have.

All of my time and thoughts during the week are consumed with school. On the weekends I try to spend my time with the people I love, running errands, doing some cooking, and of course there's always endless cleaning and laundry. When Sunday evening rolls around I find myself feeling disappointed that I didn't get a chance to respond to emails. That I didn't get a chance to text a friend back. That I didn't get a long enough work out in. That yet again I didn't get to do something I was hoping to get to.

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I knew that once I started school things were going to be different and my relationships were not going to be the same. It's an inevitable part of change and growing. I'm happy with the decision I made and I know that the sacrifices I'm making are short term but highly beneficial for our future. Yet each day I feel like I'm fighting the constant balancing act of life.

When Bailey rounded the corner on our walk and saw the pond her tail started to wag. She looked up at me with anticipation. If only her eyes could talk. I initially didn't want to let her swim because she always smells like dead fish afterward but her happiness is invigorating so I glanced around for a stick so we could play. She ran towards the pond as Lola trailed her barking with excitement.

Today my dogs taught me a good lesson. Live in the moment. Tomorrow is another day. Right now I'm going to do keep doing the best I can. That's all I can do.